What the Modern Woman Wants

This winning piece is by a 15-YEAR-OLD Singaporean girl for Commonwealth essay competition. The story is about 2 different generations. It highlights so many points that manifest themselves in today's everyday life : Clash of idealogies between generations, Conflicts of loyalty to one's inherent culture and the acquired etc. It is such an interesting essay!Happy reading!
What the Modern Woman Wants
By Amanda Chong Wei-Zhen
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The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta convertible as it careened down the highway, clutching tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid it may be kidnapped by the wind. She was not used to such speed, with trembling hands she pulled the seatbelt tighter but was careful not to touch the patent leather seats with her callused fingers, her daughter had warned her not to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show very clearly on white Ma.’

Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her sleek silver mobile phone using big words the old woman could barely understand. 'Finance' 'Liquidation' 'Assets' 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and important and had an unfamiliar lilt to it. Her Bee Choo sounded like one of those foreign girls on television. She was speaking in an American accent.
The old lady clucked her tongue in disapproval. 'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her daughter exclaimed agitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her perfectly manicured fingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in irritation.

'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she clicked the phone shut and hurled it angrily towards thethe backseat. The mobile phone hit the old woman on the forehead and nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmly picked it up and handed it to her daughter.

'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence and switching to Mandarin. 'I have a big client in America There have been a lot of problems.' The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big and important. Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view window, wondering what she was thinking. Her mother's wrinkled countenance always carried the same cryptic look.

The phone began to ring again, an artificially cheerful digital tune, which broke the awkward silence. 'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.' Elaine. The old woman cringed. I didn't name her Elaine. She remembered her daughter telling her, how an English name was very important for 'networking', Chinese ones being easily forgotten.

'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today. I have to take the ancient relic to the temple for her weird daily prayer ritual.’Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it was referring to her. Her daughter always assumed that her mother's silence meant she did not comprehend.

'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss sticks!' The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands gripping her plastic bag in defence. The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It looked almost garnish next to the dull sheen of the ageing temple's roof. The old woman got out of the back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main hall.

Her daughter stepped out of the car in her business suit and stilettos and reapplied her lipstick as she made her brisk way to her mother's side.
'Ma, I'll wait outside. I have an important phone call to make,' she said, not bothering to hide her disgust at the pungent fumes of incense. The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a joss stick, she knelt down solemnly and whispered hernow familiar daily prayer to the Gods.
Thank you God of the Sky, you have given my daughter luck all these years. Everything I prayed for, you have given her. She has everything a young woman in this world could possibly want. She has a big house with a swimming pool, a maid to help her, as she is too clumsy to sew or cook.

Her love life has been blessed; she is engaged to a rich and handsome angmoh man. Her company is now the top financial firm and even men listen to what she says. She lives the perfect life. You have given her everything except happiness. I ask that the gods be merciful to her even if she has lost her roots while reaping the harvest of success.

What you see is not true, she is a filial daughter to me. She gives me a room in her big house and provides well for me. She is rude to me only because I affect her happiness. A young woman does not want to be hindered by her old mother. It is my fault.

The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in her eyes. Finally, with her head bowed in reverence she planted the half-burnt joss stick into an urn of smouldering ashes. She bowed once more. The old woman had been praying for her daughter for thirty-two years. When her stomach was round like a melon, she came to the temple and prayed that it was a son. Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her womb, bawling and adorable with fat thighs and pink cheeks, but unmistakably, a girl. Her husband had kicked and punched her for producing a useless baby who could not work or carry the family name.

Still, the woman returned to the temple with her new-born girl tied to her waist in a sarong and prayed that her daughter would grow up and have everything she ever wanted. Her husband left her and she prayed that her daughter would never have to depend on a man. She prayed every day that her daughter would be a great woman, the woman that she, meek and uneducated, could never become. A woman with nengkan; the ability to do anything she set her mind to. A woman who commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she opened her mouth to speak, precious pearls would fall out and men would listen.

She will not be like me, the woman prayed as she watched her daughter grow up and drift away from her, speaking a language she scarcely understood. She watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl, to one who openly defied her, calling her laotu; old-fashioned. She wanted her mother to be ‘modern’- 'modern', a word so new there was no Chinese word for it.

Now her daughter was too clever for her and the old woman wondered why she had prayed like that. The gods had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the wealth and success that poured forth so richly had buried the girl's roots and now she stood, faceless, with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors by only a string of origami banknotes.

Her daughter had forgotten her mother's values. Her wants were so ephemeral; that of a modern woman. Power, wealth, access to the best fashion boutiques, and yet her daughter had not found true happiness. The old woman knew that you could find happiness with much less. When her daughter left the earth everything she had would count for nothing. People would look to her legacy and say that she was a great woman, but she would be forgotten once the wind blows over, like the ashes of burnt paper , convertibles paper and mansions.

The old woman wished she could go back and erase all her big hopes and prayers for her daughter; now she had only one want: That her daughter be happy. She looked out of the temple gate. She saw her daughter speaking on the phone, her brow furrowed with anger and worry. Being at the top is not good, thewoman thought, there is only one way to go from there - down.

The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and spread out a packet of beehoon in front of the altar. Her daughter often mocked her for worshipping porcelain Gods. How could she pray to them so faithfully and expect pieces of ceramic to fly to her aid? But her daughter had her own gods too, idols of wealth, success and power that she was enslaved to and worshipped every day of her life. Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols she worshipped counted for nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter had would slowly suck the life out of her and leave her, an empty soulless shell at the altar. The old lady watched her joss tick. The dull heat had left a teetering grey stem that was on the danger of collapsing.

Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in resignation, as she bowed to the east one final time to end her ritual. Modern woman nowadays wants so much that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot find it. Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder. She met her daughter outside the temple, the same look of worry and frustration was etched on her daughter's face. An empty expression, as if she was ploughing through the soil of her wants looking for the one thing that would sow the seeds of happiness. They climbed into the convertible in silence and her daughter drove along the highway, this time not as fast as she had done before.
'Ma,' Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put this. Mark and I have been talking about it and we plan to move out of the big house. The property market is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to pay seven million for it. We decided we'd prefer a cosier penthouse apartment instead. We found a perfect one in Orchard Road. Once we move in to our apartment we plan to get rid of the maid, so we can have more space to ourselves...'

The old woman nodded knowingly. Bee Choo swallowed hard. 'We'd get someone to come in to do the housework and we can eat out - but once the maid is gone, there won't be anyone to look after you. You will be awfully lonely at home and, besides that, the apartment is rather small. There won't be space. We thought about it for a long time, and we decided the best thing for you is if you moved to a Home. There's one near Hougang - it's a Christian home, a very nice one.'

The old woman did not raise an eyebrow. 'I've been there, the matron is willing to take you in. It's beautiful with gardens and lots of old people to keep you company! I hardly have time for you, you'd be happier there.' 'You'd be happier there, really.' Her daughter repeated as if to affirm herself. This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food offerings to cling tightly to; she bit her lip and fastened her seat belt, as if it would protect her from a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk deep into the leather seat, letting her shoulders sag, and her fingers trace the white seat.
'Ma?' her daughter asked, searching the rear view window for her mother. 'Is everything okay?' What had to be done, had to be done. 'Yes,' she said firmly, louder than she intended, 'if it will make you happy,' she added more quietly.

'It's for you, Ma! You'll be happier there. You can move there tomorrow, I already got the maid to pack your things.' Elaine said triumphantly, mentally ticking yet another item off her agenda. 'I knew everything would be fine.' Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated. Perhaps getting rid of her mother would make her happier. She had thought about it. It seemed the only hindrance in her pursuit of happiness. She was happy now. She had everything a modern woman ever wanted; Money, Status, Career, Love, Power and now, Freedom, without her mother and her old-fashioned ways to weigh her down...
Yes, she was free. Her phone buzzed urgently, she picked it up and read the message, still beaming from ear to ear. 'Stocks 10% increase!' Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for her... And while searching for the meaning of life in the luminance of her hand phone screen, the old woman in the backseat became invisible, and she did not see the tears.

# Marilyn | Permalink |


4 km

Aku baru balik dari Pasir Gudang, semalam. Dua hari aku di Pasir Gudang. Bekerja dan bukan jalan-jalan. Tapi pekerjaan aku adalah berjalan-jalan.

I was in Pasir Gudang - checking of new pipelines installed. The pipeline's inspection process took me around 4 hours to complete the whole route. It was only the On-site inspection, and the documentation inspection took me another 6 hours to complete the discussion. Pretty massive, isn't it? Or am i being too particular about the project progress?

The most exiting part was the 'jalan-jalan' part. The new pipeline is about 2km long. And we were walking along the pipelines, eerr... checking to be exact. Inspecting, taking pix, jotting notes and exchanging ideas along the way. Ok, it was tiring. Very much tiring for a big fat gurl (i refer myself as a big fat gurl (gurl? hahahah)) to practise those exercise. But i rather be seen tergolek dog tengah jalan than be seen keletihan while doing my job. Kembang hidung when one of the member complimented "waaah, not bad aaa u. Never thought u can tahan the exercise".

Being a woman engineer is a challenge and a proud image to women in the society. So i can't really potray myself as weak and "i can't do it.." type of girl. I have to be energetic and aggressive. Yeah.. and i ended up jalan-jalan for 4km.. tiring but fun!


# Marilyn | Permalink |


Puteri Gunung Ledang Part II

Sebelum aku lupa macam mana cerita PGL, baik aku review cepat-cepat.

Menonton PGL pada pendapat aku (aku ulangi, pendapat aku) terasa seperti menonton dokumentari sejarah melayu dan ada kalanya seperti menonton National Geographic. Shot dan angle yang dipaparkan sungguh cantik. Ada air terjun, ada pokok-pokok, ada hutan-hutan, ada rumah-rumah lama dan sebagainya. Kadang-kadang, terasa seperti aku lebih banyak menumpukan perhatian kepada props dan costumes pelakon daripada menghayati cerita. PGL sungguh indah paparan seninya.

Action gangster dibelasah oleh Tuah di awal cerita sungguh 'full of action'. Ada orang guling-guling di udara sampai 4 kali sebelum jatuh ke tanah, wa cakap lu... (err, ok, ada unsur filem kungfu hong kong jugak dipaparkan dalam cerita in tetapi kalau kita suka menonton dan boleh menerima action itu dipaparkan dalam hong kong movies, kenapa tidak dalam filem Melayu walaupun ia agak exaggerate, right?)

Apa yang aku perhatikan, PGL banyak 'bermain' dengan unsur-unsur alam semulajadi untuk 'mencantikkan' cerita. Ada pokok-pokok, ada air sungai, ada air hujan, ada shot di tasik banding, ada unsur sinaran matahari (ketika Sultan menterjemahkan utusan Puteri), ada unsur api, angin dan air semasa Hang Tuah dan Gusti Adipati (betul kah namanya ini?) bertarung. Dalam kata lain, aku dapat melihat hampir kesemua unsur alam dipaparkan dalam PGL. Menarik, bukan?

Cukup dengan segmen memuji.

Jalan cerita PGL amat perlahan. Amat-amat perlahan. Dan aku berpendapat, script para pelakon patut ditambah di beberapa scene. Benar, sekiranya script kurang, pelakon harus banyak bermain dengan face expression. Mungkin kerana face expression yang diharapkan tidak menjadi atau tidak cukup, aku tidak dapat menerima sesetengah mesej yang cuba disampaikan. Rather than potraying the feeling, what i got was considered as a 'blank' face by some actors.

Intonation dan lenggok gaya suara di beberapa scene ada kalanya tidak kena dengan zaman Kesultanan Melaka. Part ini, aku memang boleh comment sebab aku pernah belajar dan terlibat dalam pengarahan drama bangsawan suatu ketika dahulu. Sometimes, lenggok suara kedengaran di telinga aku - sounds so 'commercial'. Sungguh tak kena. Pengucapan Sultan ada kalanya tak kena dengan gaya Sultan Melaka pada zaman itu.. Amat janggal kedengaran di telinga aku (ulangi:telinga aku).

Hang Tuah ada dua bilah keris. Yaaa, dua bilah keris. Satu nya Taming sari dan satu lagi tak bernama. Taming Sari dibaling ke dasar laut/tasik oleh Tuah. Tengkolok Tuah diserahkan pada Datuk Bendahara. "Selagi Taming sari tak dijumpai, selagi itu Tuah tak akan kembali".. Lebih kurang begitulah skripnya. Tapi aku tak nampak pulak Tuah serahkan keris tak bernama tuh pada team Datuk Bendahara. Alih-alih, Datuk Bendahara serahkan sebilah keris, tanjak dan persalinan pada Sultan Melaka. Pernyataan spontan aku - "Eh... kan Taming Sari dah dibuang ke laut?" . Cepat sahaja kawan aku menerangkan "yang itu keris lagi satu lah......."

Ok, apa yang kena nya di sini? Mungkin keris tak bernama ada diserahkan pada Datuk Bendahara tapi waktu itu camera tak focus pada keris tersebut. Watch between the shot. Aku takkisah itu. Tapi pendapat aku, kalau lah dapat dibezakan appearance kedua-dua keris itu adalah lebih baik. Sebab yang aku nampak, lebih kurang saja Taming Sari dan Keris tak bernama. At least, letak lah batu permata kaler lain yang kurang menarik pada keris tak bernama.

Itu sahaja yang dapat aku recall pada PGL. Untuk filem Melayu yang ada kelainan dan pada yang nak to be included in the group yang thrill nak tengok PGL, aku syorkan kalian menontonnya. Tapi untuk yang sukakan fast action movies, kalau nak pergi tengok pun tak per. Just that aku nak warn, adegan bertarung ada dua episode aje lah... :-)

3 1/2 Bintang!




# Marilyn | Permalink |


Puteri Gunung Ledang

Aku sangat thrill!!! Dah lama aku tunggu saat nak menonton PGL. Advertisement PGL sangat gah! Di mana-mana sahaja aku terperasan ada poster-poster besar PGL. Dekat building Pusat Bandar Damansara nih pun ada jugak gambar Tiara Jac dan M. Nasir tertampal di kiri dan kanan.

"Aku mesti tengok!" - terdetik kata hati aku sejak aku mula-mula lihat iklan di TV. Tapi tiket wayang PGL macam pisang goreng panas. Sekejap sahaja habis. Sejak 31 Ogos aku mendail GSC untuk menempah tiket. Semuanya fully booked. Frust, aku cuba ke Midvalley untuk walk-in ticket. Mak aii.. Punya lah ramai orang dan barisan sangat panjang. Tiba time aku, show time yang aku available untuk tengok pulak habis dan aku settle untuk cerita Wicker Park yang aku ingatkan thriller movie. Terkena aku. Takkan aku lupakan pengalaman menonton love story di Midvalley. Bukan tak boleh menonton slow movies di cinema tapi terasa rugi duit RM10 ku dibelanjakan untuk movie yang boleh ditonton di rumah.

Dan hari ini, aku akan tengok PGL. Akan ku tebus frustration aku sebab tak dapat ticket dari minggu lepas. Sejak semalam aku rasa ada butterflies terbang-terbang dalam perut aku. Memang aku begini kalau aku sangat thrill. Perasaan yang sama aku hadapi a day before big presentation or a day before debate competition masa sekolah-sekolah dulu. Dan perasaan yang sama aku hadapi the night aku nak gi outstation kalau aku ada flight pagi. Bukan apa, aku takut tak sedar... hehehe. Cukuplah pengalaman aku melepak 5 jam dekat standby counter di malam raya 2 tahun lepas sebab aku terlepas flight. Dan ia satu pengalaman yang tak kelakar langsung dan tak perlu dicuba oleh sesiapa. Sangat menyiksakan.

Tapi persoalan dalam benak fikiran aku... Hebat sangat kah PGL? Adakah PGL mampu memenuhi expectation aku terhadap epik filem Melayu? Nak tahu? Tunggu comment aku lepas aku tengok PGL petang ni. :-)

# Marilyn | Permalink |


Retro Night



Yeah! aku berjaya juga pakai rambut pink seperti yang aku imaginekan. Sabtu lepas ada company's annual dinner night. Theme for the night was Retro. Penat aku pikir apa aku nak pakai for the night. I want something different and outstanding - not really aiming for best dressed award but aku really feel like partying and be in the community.

Puas berfikir, aku teringat kartun yang aku paling minat masa kecik-kecik dulu. JAM! yes.. kalau sesaper ingat lah.. JAM nih rambut dia sekejap-sekejap biru, sekejap-sekejap pink, sekejap-sekejap purple. And aku settle for pink color as my favourite color.

Aku tahu sikit orang jer yang dare to wear pink color wig bawak kereta ke. Yeap... and i'm one of them. Kadang-kadang seronok jugak tengok people's reaction bila nampak benda pelik nih. U should see mcm-mcm expression orang buat kat aku bila nampak aku pakai wig pink bawak kereta. Ha ha ha. It was hilarious! aku tahu orang gelakkan aku but i was laughing at their expressions they've put on their face. Ada yang sengih, ada yang sorak, ada yang mencebik, ada yang gelak, ada yang geleng kepala, ada yang senyum, ada yang pusing kepala sampai berkali-kali (kengkonon tak nak tengok but keep on looking). hahaha. it was a nice way to release tension aku.

And at first, ramai yang tak kenal aku bila aku arrive di hotel ballroom. Yeah.. Bermuka selamba, aku tegur seorang demi seorang. Feel like a superstar! err, to be exact, HONG KONG superstar! with glitter pink blouse, black pants and the most outstanding striking pink wig!!!

The night went on really well. And i was just a lucky person being selected as one of the lucky draw winner. Tau apa yang aku menang? i won a SONY handycam. Waahhhh... aku suka malam Ahad tuh. and i wish i will be more lucky next year to win the vacation package.. YEAY!!

# Marilyn | Permalink |

 

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